I keep thinking that I couldn't possibly feel any worse than I do but then somethigne else happens and I see that I was wrong. I don't know how much more I can take. There's only so much of hearing about what a horrible person I am and how terrible I am and waking up to hateful and angry messages that I can deal with. Maybe everyne is right. Maybe I just don't deserve to be here. At least my husbnd and kids would have friends. When I saw that I had a message this morning I was excited. I don't hear from people much anymore. I like gtting mssages. I'm sory I woke up.